A Librarian's..

Allrit this journal has a lot of cobwebs and I jus need to write to get rid of them.

December has been a real great month for me, Ok I finally passed my SOC after my third/fourth try. Its been a tough training but my efforts paid off at last, i vomited at the end of the run. Passing Soc means I will be promoted in Jan! And no more training!!

And this mth i will have a lot of rest due to clearing of my leave and off, which is great!

Lately, I kept seeing old friends that I have not met for a long time, on wed I saw Matthew at Timbre and yesterday I saw my bmt buddy wenkai, who is nw a regular officer. How things change lol!

And talking of Timbre, it is a great chill out place, a outdoor bar. I met up with candice, yy and weiliang at clarke quay mrt, which i rushed down from camp without aproper attire and messy hair. We walked for a distance and when we reached there, there was a long queue, we ended up waiting from 8 plus till 9.45 to haev a table in front of the live band. Timbre has a great atmosphere, and was super crowded even though its a wednesday! I guess most SMU students go there since its not far from Timbre. We ordered pasta and a pizza, drinks like vodka redbull, Sinagapore Sling and Erdinger beer, and lastly 12 shots of KAMIKAZE, which is not potent as the name sounds. When the live band started playing, it was loud but i must say i was impressed by them, the singer has a good voice and the music was great.

Best of all, Matthew and another girl was called up to stage by the live band singer and he was told to do a lap dance with the girl sitting on the chair! He gamely dance to the tune and all the people was laughing! Btw Matther was celebrating his 21st birthday so I suppose he was sabo by his friends on stage.

And of coz we took pics using candice phone, mine was left at home as i did nt have time to change to my civilian camera phone.




Candice say this was a great photo, well i have to agree that this was one of the best photos taken.

Well I can't wait for Christmas!

Whew I jus bk out today, did duty yesterday, this wkend jus went pass.

I 'm jus sort of counting down till my freedom, approximately 7 months. Yes I really want it! seriously i would trade anything to ord instantly. Really want to get back society to work and save up for uni studies.

I went to watch the chinese movie "liang zhu" with zermaine, and it was a sad romance story. After the movie, I went to mit with cz n yy, but yy went off to mit up with her frenz at marina square so no time to really talk. Instead, went supper with cz n and her bf to eat supper at east coast hawker by car. I was quite tired after that.

21 this year, jus wanna get out of singlehood but nt in a rush. Its nt easy but cupid might jus strike me at any time lol.

2 more days and ITs another turning point... turning 21! People say ur a official adult,
which is true as R21 shows are no longer a restriction, haha! Almost every friend of mine
organized a chalet/ birthday party for their celebrations and I was thinking whether it's
the only way to celebrate.

I'm nt saying that's boring, fantastic because everyone gathered
at 1 place to mingle around. But chalets are nt for me coz it requires lotsa of planning and
coordination in asking frenz to cum.

I dun like to waste energy and time to do all these even its 21st, jus want it simple but memorable 1 lol! Some of my frenz asked me hw to celebrate but I dun really have ideas lol. Jus eat at a great place and jus have crazy fun.

Tml I would be going dbl o, 2 mths since I club, jus wanna drink all i want and party! Of cos know more girls!

Though I did nt spell it, jus hoping some presents would cum my way haha! It would be gd to
have but more importantly, to be able to celebrate wif gd frenz. After all it's my big day!
Jus wanna get a Fossil watch!

Next posting would be on my post birthday celebrations, pics to accompany.

Thks if ur reading this entry ^-^!

Mayb either my logic sucks or I am plain stupid sometimes. I was really pissed off today. Simply we go to places that did nt exist in my version of Singapore. We went to Kranji, then on to queensway, and we have to go changi? And still expect us to press on?

I dun know WTF his mind thinking. I did duty yesterday and in my state of mind, I'm nt going to go there, my home is in AMK, not some area in the east. And I'm not obliged to listen to stupid logic if it defies mine when i am outside.

WHO in the Freaking hell would go to changi and then go back home to AMK!! unless My taxi fare is reimbursed. Not everyone has the same opinion as him, this is democracy man.

I understood his point of view, to press on so tml would be more relac, but its nt as if our lives depend on winning.

It sucks.

Seeing my display pic, memoirs of my early days, I still think they are the best buddies in NS, At least they are willing to help u and I really feel we were like a band of brothers. It was jus like yesterday.

On the happy note, I hope tml's dbl 0 would be fun, good. a girl's number and stress free time awaits...!!

Yeap I watched Kungfu panda yesterday at Eng Wah, sadly nt at AMK Cathay becoz there was a huge crowd yesterday, and the tickets were all sold out, and wkends AMK hub jus seem to have a lot of people..

Its been ages since I went to Eng Wah to watch a movie. Yj and I went to Jubilee to buy tickets which was readily available, and the staff jus give me the back seats. Plus besides u, there were no one buying tickets, almost like a dead cinema. I start to wonder whether we are the only ones watching man.. Lol

We went to Mac and chill out b4 watching the movie.

Well, I would jus say the outline of the story to avoid any spoilers. Basically, it talks about this panda named Po. who dreamed to learn kungfu and be a hero. But he was big and fat, and his father want him to take over the family noodle store. Then, a wise turtle predicted that his student Tai Lung, would break out of prison and cause havoc to the peaceful town. Only the dragon warrior would be able to stop him. So, by accident Po stumbled into the palace to sell his mee and was chosen as the dragon warrior...

The movie is good, had hilarious moments and the process of how Po was trained to be the dragon warrior was really amusing. Strongly recommended to watch!!

Have to book in liao as I write this entry, hope everything would be ok..

Anyone reading hope u can put in a comment!

I woke up pretty early to go to Tony's house for his housewarming party at Yishun. This was a sort of celebration for his successful ROM with his long time girlfriend. It was just a year since we graduated and whoah, it jus happened.

So anyway, met up wif Ian, Ivan, Bob and LK to contribute to a hongbao as a form of present to Tony. At his house, we helped ourselves to the buffet and generally chit chat. It was a short stay, 2 hours but b4 we go off, we watched a video tribute filming the ROM process and happy moments taken during the whole ceremony. I really felt happy for them, wish them here eternal bliss and happiness of their marriage! I wondered when would the cupid strike me lol..!

Then I went back to AMK to play futsal, jus can't resist football for me..

2 more weeks and It would be officially 1 yr of NS liao!! There was a lof of sweat, shagness, tekaness and more, nt easy but had gone through it.. seeing my friends commisioned to officers 1 by 1. Alas 1 more year but IT be over soon, I'm almost there...!

I jus saw a fund raising show on channel 8. It was broadcasting this video of this man who was stucked in the debris of the school destroyed by the massive earthquake. it was taken b4 he was rescued. He was stucked for 79 hrs b4 he was finally rescued . Sadly, he died b4 he was given treatment. B4 he died, he has talked on the phone to his wife that he wants to see her pregnant wife and be with her again. His spirit and determination to live was fantastic, hanging hope of being rescued. It was depressing to watch, it must be worse for their loved ones..

A lot of people jus died suddenly in a natural disaster, plus the Myanmmar cyclone, this year is not that gd after all, amid the fear of terrorist attacks and political unrest.

Blessed the souls of the people who died unexpectedly and more people to be rescued....

Yesterday and today was bad: i vomited yesterday in the taxi on myself due to too much drinking of beer, I felt bad.. 1st time it happens.. Damn it sucks....

Today, i dun know if its a bad thing, pure coincidence, destiny or whatever u call it, but jus happen to saw her walking past with her sis. Right at the moment we saw each other, and I guess we were both shocked to see each other, that I did not know whether to say hi or jus to simply keep quiet and walk away. My mind was simply a blank at that time. So I chose the latter: walk away. I guess that's me, dun really want to get reminded, jus let it be and walk off. Its been a year anyway and we walk our separate ways happily. I wish her happiness though we are nt frenz anymore. Heaven making me the butt of jokes? Hah Damn...

Hope u be reading, I really din mean to put plane and make u angry, its my fault that i chose to go zouk then changed my mind to go watch movie, Be angry at me its ok, jus dun condemn me is all i ask for.
I nt feeling any good aso

Sometimes I feel being a human is a chore, i'm jus trying my best to try to please my frenz but unfortunately i jus failed miserably. I realised i'm nt a super man after all.. Hah it sucks, Yesterday while my army buddy and I drank and talk, he said that I shd curb my fiery and volatile temper and at least he was honest to tell me that coz he wants me to change. Otherwise I'm a good person. He's nt the 1st person, and i hope he's the last to think that.

To you and only u again if u are reading this entry: I really hope u dun be angry at me. I dun wanna u to ignore me

Due to someone reminding me to update, so i'm writing this extravagant entry with proper english, no lahs or any singlish.. so sit back on ur couch, whatever and patiently read this, i try to make it gd reading, since I got the mood and inspiration to write.

Firstly, jus wanna briefly talk about some of the things i thinking of getting, except ps3: as follows: Note: pics are taken from Google..






Yeap, think its strange for guys to get fragrance/perfume? Well I personally treat it as a form of must have accessory b4 going out, jus like watches and bracelets. Cum on, its great to smell gd, sort of give u a confidence boost. I looking for this brand, which is shown in some magazines as a new fragrance. I got a sample of it when walking past the Tangs shopping centre, and I think its great. BUT, the prob is its quite hard to find, most of the departmental stores do nt carry this brand, most probably I'm going to Tangs to get it perhaps next wk.. anyone who have any idea where it is sold for a cheaper price can drop me a comment and tell me? Next..




Ok its nt rit to get a camera phone in my current state but this phone did attract me to have the thought to get it, my contract is ending in May and the 3250 is nt in great condition.. It has a 5 megapixel camera, mp3 and its a slider , stylish.. I like..

Oh, I want to get a pair of white jeans and shoes too.. that have to wait...

Moving on, 2 more weeks and I would be in another part of the world for 2 weeks.. Technically its nt long but problem is its nt a holiday, tough days to endure.. I will miss the forever evolving but heavenly Singapore food, the pretty girls in Orchard road, Of cos my friends and family.. Damn I hope the homesickness bug dun affect me that bad.. Pray I would be safe and sound in 1 piece without trouble, simple.

7 more months to my 21st birthday, looking forward, marks the transition to a adult, Hah feeling old already, no longer that poly nerd/brat.

In previous weeks, I been hanging out wif yj and jeremy most of the time, did nt see edmund and jason for a long time. Which is less lively considering jason was the funny guy in our group. Guess after graduation everyone has their commitments like work, guys waiting for NS and gals for university entry or work. Which leads me to think: When I ORD would it mean even less time to contact and mit up wif frenz as I would be working? A fresh new set of challenges would arise once I'm out of NS, I dread to think deeply into it though.. You never knew what u have lost, till u lose it, think and regret your actions. Life is like a photo album, memories and dreams are the photos in the album that capture how meaningful a person has lived his life. My photo album is still incomplete, there are still many photos I want to capture yet.

I know I mostly use words in my journal so might be quite boring. jus try to use many pics for my subsequent entries.

Could be my last entry b4 my training, and would continue after i cum back.

My Internet was down for quite some time.. But i'm glad that I can go online again!!It would be 1 mth plus b4 going to india for overseas training for 2 wks.. Thinking of it springs a bundle of questions in my mind: would i be able to adapt? would i be cope with homesickness?

Though its only 2 wks, but its nt like I'm going on a holiday, heard about the atrocious weather there, super duper hot and cold both day and night.. Jus hope that I would still be back in 1 piece and nt gt into any trouble lo!

But, I'm looking forward to go to the Taj Mahar, one of the 7 wonders, to capture pictures and keep it as memories ba!

And I'm looking forward to next wkend coz it would be Kbox again! been itching to sing for along time liaoz!

A quick entry since its been some time i wrote something lolss

Bk out on friday evening; and i went to grapevine; which is like a chill out bar at serangoon, miting 2 of my army frenz Ian and SP. I shared a jug of beer with SP, and we talk over beer and french fries, which was really gd.. simple, jus totally relax and chill out!

Then yesterday, i went to downtown east chalet to Jeremy's 21st birthday celebrations. I chipped in a Man U jersey as his birthday present. The whole thing really started at around 6 plus to 7, during which i was slping

When the bbq starts, I jus keep picking on my favourite chicken wings, nv actually do any bbq myself though, my mission was to eat as much as possible! Well did nt really do much, jus playing poker, did nt drank any alcohol and... jus eat!

The cutting of the cake starts at 10 plus, the birthday cake was shaped like a key and was quite big. The birthday boy of the day was seated a lot of photos were taken wif his gf, family and frenz

Then after the birthday songs and immediately he was cake attacked by us- excluding me!

I went hme at 11 plus, nt staying overnight coz nt many familiar guys are staying.

It was heartwarming to see the family organising a chalet and prepare food to help celebrate jeremy's birthday, and receiving so many presents, celebrating with his gf and lotsa frenz..

Haha hw i wish i was like him on my birthday!

Actually my 21st birthday need nt be in a chalet or what: i prefer it to be less glamorous, jus simple, fun and memorable! presents the more the merrier ba!

Most prob jus gather wif my bunch of frenz and drink! And my birthday falls on a saturday so no longer need to celebrate in the camp! Or jus celebrate wif my gd.. IF I have 1 that is haha!

Yes finally this is the 1ast day of 2008, a fresh new year!! As i'm writing this I'm on the verge of gonig out to have my dinner and then bking in liao lo


2007 was a so so year for me i guess, coz i experienced the highs like graduation from poly,
it also mark the beginning of my NS journey, Glad to know my tekong buddies and recap on the xiong periods and the slack periods, the fun we had when mocking each other and the encouragement to push ourselves through.. I still rmb the route marches, all the singing, pop day, Could nv be erased from my mind.. three quarters of NS and I would start embarking to pursue my own dream life

Aso, this year i managed to get some long lost contacts like my cousins and knew some frenz..
Its amazing.

MY resolutions for 2008:
Finding love which is simply a gf. remains top priority
PS3, muz buy b4 my birthday
Strengthen existing friendships coz frenz are my pillar of support
Make new frenz.. lotsa of them!
Go through NS training safely
To have a memorable 21st birthday.. I'm getting old
To be more confident and be more sociable which i'm trying nw

I went to this restaurant yesterday named SeaHarvest which is another company under Jacks place at bugis junction for dinner with my bro. Yj they all went to see the Show Luo Zhi Xiang concert at 8 so did nt mit them.

I ordered a grill salmon and a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice. The grill salmon was really gd: tender and crispy without the dreaded fish smell. There were a lot of people quening up at various restaurants: Ma Maison the japanese western restaurant was aso crowded.

The restaurant overall atmosphere was really great, decorated for the upcoming Christmas. I would say its a great place to bring ur date to eat. Though it would punch a hole in ur pocket. But it is definitely worth the price granted the premium quality of the food and service..!!

Drank beer with some frenz at.. the front of this cafe opposite the Istana during the wee hours of the morning. I witness a quite unpleasant scene of a my friend quarreling wif his girlfriend on the phone.. Could understand how he felt since i was once like him. Seeing him this way sprang a question to my mind: Is been attached a great thing after all? Or been single is the best way at this age? Whether u are single or attached, there would still be pros and cons, their own troubles. He said if u want to find, find a good girl. But each person has their own definition of a good girl. I guess love could be a double edge sword: u would be either very happy when together or very hurt when broke up.

Been attached requires great deal of trust and tolerance for each others character. Its nt easy after all.

Yesterday was a nt so eventful day. jus booked out yesterday morning, only slept 1 hr b4 that, shagged out. Reached home and slept in the afternoon till 5 plus. Went to Suntec city jus walk. Went into this shop called Levis Strauss Signature and took a look at the jeans. Initially i jus went in jus to window shop, then a few moments later the sales staff came to me wif a box full of cards and told me to pick 1. I politely declined but she told me to jus take coz there was a sort of a discount going on depending on the contents of the card and it is valid till a certain date. Then i took 1 and use my key to scratch and reveal the contents. IT says 15 dollars off for 1 jeans purchased.

I was actually thinking of buying a pair of jeans aso, about time since i'm been wearing the same old jeans for a long time. Then so, i bought a pair for 53 bucks..

then continue to walk and eventually i went to buy donuts to eat since its quite famous and fortunately the quene was quite short and i managed to buy 2. I must admit its quite nice!, granted that i dun really eat donuts.

at round 7.30, i reached cine to mit up wif YJ and his frenz to eat dinner at LJS. a

Around 9, went back to amk hub to watch Enchanted at 11.30 as the 10.45 timing seats were mostly full. we bought tickets at around 10, so we went to the S11 nearby to drink something to pass our time.

This wk was overall great! After getting back home on friday, and yea i really miss home considering i was out in the wilderness for some days. After reaching home, I checked my refrigerator and freezer for snacks and it was a surprise to finds lotsa chocolate! Considering i do have a sweet knack for it, i grabbed a strawberry nougat coated wif dark chocolate and the taste was awesome, and later i found out that my bro. jus came back from reservist training from Australia, bought beer, a Malibu coconut rum, chocos and a shirt for me.. At nite I tried the coconut rum wif pineapple juice, chilled in the freezer for 10 mins, and the result was.. Freaking shiok!!

Saturday was a rare busy day for me. woke at around 10.30, played my PS2 for round 30 mins, then went to eat chicken rice wif my bro. then i hitch the MRT straight to lavender to mit up wif 1 of my army mate as we need to buy essential stuff to be used for outfields.

After finishing it, I went back hme at round 2.50 and change to my jeans. 3.20 reached bishan mrt to mit up with YJ, bought movie tickets for Beowulf at cineleisure starting at 5.45.

A short review on Beowulf: It is overall a decent with great 3D graphics according to YJ. He is a NAFA graduate so that's why he knew. the 3D characters are drawn very realistic and I actually had my doubts to whether its real or fake. Well, Personally I would recommend it to watch.

After finishing the movie, we walked around the town area while waiting for the other guys to mit up with us, and man, town is really crowded with every traffic light junction swarming with people.. And though its 1 month b4 Christmas, the decorations are already up and really brought the festive mood to Singapore..

We went to Paragon and I bought a polo Tee at this shop called Cello. Its is really comfortable when i tried it and i bought it at 57 bucks...

when the others came, we went to Heeren top level to eat the fried wanton mee.. Then i have to go off after eating to upper serangoon to this pub called Grapevine to mit up with my poly frenz who are nw in NS.. I ordered a Bacardi on the rocks, which looks like ice plain water but taste like.. kerosene as 1 of my friend tried.. Then i ordered a heineken beer which taste better than the previous one.. We chatted for 1 half hours, its been a long time since we actually mit up after our poly graduation. I was jus delighted to jus talk and relax with these guys.

Sometimes its quite painful to see couples

Mayb being in single status for so long that u want to venture again to find

Though i refused to admit it, but i felt lately that i'm nt feeling rit, feeling unhappy, jus can't be the usual me. yesterday i met 2 frenz for dinner but i hardly spoke and jus listen to their talking.. they asked me what's wrong, i said it was jus becoz i'm tired due to doing guard duty on friday and nt having enough slp.

It was supposed to be a happy simple mit up with frenz but dampened the spirits due to me, jus felt guilty and sms them to apologize after we went home.

I met a friend today at the mrt to get something, and we have a brief chat. She said that I seriously looked down.

What if I change my character when there were signs of breaking?

Will that fateful day happen?

I always had difficulty expressing myself and my troubles to people, and i would only do so if that person is who i can trust.

In camp, I sometimes sms people to ask them casual questions during my admin time. mayb i wanna find someone to talk to.

This music video i personally like and the song is nice and touching

 

What if I am given the ability to reverse decisions made after i know the consequences? would that means I would be perfect as a person and there would be no such thing called wrong?

One fatal decision I have made till nw still lingers in my memory somewhere . One that was fill with happiness but it was wrong from the beginning..

After so much time jus when I thought i finally purge it out, I was reminded all of it again..

Why did i drank? the false hope of a brain washing technique to sink away my unhappiness.. Pity I can encourage others and try to keep them happy but I'm a total mess when its my turn to feel the wrath of sadness

Was i jus a mere substitute which turns out to be imperfect all along for someone who is deem irreplaceable?

Its a joke, but a sad joke for me for which i am the fool in this joke...

Yesterday was a decent day.. woke up at 8.30 to go mit my friend to buy stuff at beach rd.. Ate spare ribs with prawns noodles which was advertised in the newspapers.. It was nice, the soup tasty, and i aso ordered peanut soup with black sesame tangyuan at only 1.50! Man it was really heavenly nice!

Then afternoon came the rain which prevented me frm going out.. Went out at 4.30 to go bugis junction to mit my frenz namely yj, jason that gang.. And the mrt was bloody crowded due to hari raya.. missed 1 train becoz i can't squeeze my body into the cabin..

went to converse on the 1st floor as there was a sale promotion going on. Not surprisingly it was quite packed, and i bought a pair of shoes at 29.90 which i think was a catch since it looks great! met my frenz and we hang around for a while to wait for this band of sorts to cum to the stage set up in the open area. Did nt know what band was that but muz be quite popular

then i boarded the mrt to go to orchard mrt where i miting frenz which i knew during a work stint b4 NS. There were three of them: one guy in NS like me and 2 JC girls who are nw in universities. Pity 1 did nt make it due to too much study work and yea was a bit disappointed coz this miting was quite hard to organise due to diff factors..

ate dinner at pizzahut in lucky plaza and finally ended my day by eating ice cream mudpie at NYDC in wheelock place!

B4 going hme i went to 7-11 to buy a can of beer.. Aso dun know why i did it, i guess it helps me energize my mind to prepare for another wk.. or perhaps a bit of sadness

If possible i wanna go vivo city next bkout since its been a few months that i went there le! Who wants to go wif me !!

Tml will be my 1st day in my new unit and i feeling quite.. abit scared? I dun know after hearing so many ppl giving me a answer so sinisterly familiar that works like a nightmare: "Wa lao its gonna be xiong man!, gd luck dude, its gonna be tiring and dangerous, why u nv put yes to command sch?...

Its like the hype surrounding me when i 1st enlisted into army, but after getting into it found out that it wasn't super bad though... They say BMT is the only place where there is fun and nt that xiong but once ur in unit its a diff story together.. real punishment really cums in coz u are considered a trained soldier. Of cos I hope my bunk mates would be gd and gonna be brothers for the rest of NS till we ORD, at least this makes life easier..

My new camp is nt really that far, unlike always taking taxis in the past to get home fast, I could take a mrt back hme in perhaps 30 mins.. This saves alot of money...!

I was happy that all my bunk mates and frenz got great postings and especially my buddy, whos gonna be a future commander.I sincerely wish them gd luck and pass out with a rank

More about recent happenings: Yesterday I watch a midnight show called "I now pronounced u Chuck and Larry"..

Well this pic is taken from the GV website


It is about these 2 firemen called Chuck and Larry who are very gd frenz.. After a close shave with death in a accident during his course of work, Larry decided to change the beneficiary of a insurance from his deceased wife to him so that his children would be taken care of financially shd he be killed in a accident. But this can only be done by remarrying a person and as he still can't forget his wife and after seeing this newspaper article saying about application of being domestic partners which declares 2 males are really gays, he decided to approach Chuck and ask him to be his gay partner....

Overall this movie was hilarious and the acting of the 2 main characters was pretty gd, especially Chuck. I would recommend this to those who wants to have a great laugh for a change..!

Of cos been packing up my barang barang for tomorrow.. gonna sleep early today. Take it like a man do and accept his role.

Last thing: I got this shirt which a friend of mine bought it from hongkong during her trip there.. But alas i have nt took a pic with my camera phone so i can't upload it now. Would upload it later..